Viv’s Glow up Diaries #2

Happy Wednesday Guys!! I am back with a second post. Today I’m going to talk about body image. Through personal experience, I struggled with how I look. Just to clarify, I don’t have any eating disorders, but if you have an eating disorder or know someone who has one please check out this link: https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/support-services/helplines !!!

It started when I was very young through my family I think. I first realised it about 2 years ago, I never thought I struggled with body image and how I looked before either. It was a very recent discovery, shall we say. I am a very thin and short person (I’m 5ft) so throughout my entire life, my family would always tell me to eat more, that I’m so skinny the wind could blow me away. I never realised that it had an impact on me. I used to wear quite a lot of loose clothes to hide the fact I was skinny. I ended up hating eating and I’d eat for the sake of survival and trying to gain weight and not because I loved food. But I couldn’t gain weight, I never pushed myself to eat more than I could because I was a very sick child, so I would never push myself to feel sick. When I grew up and around the age of 14, I hated the way I looked and to make it even worse, people put their hand around my wrist and make remarks about how skinny I was. I wanted to be taller, I wanted not to be skin and bones. I know now that it isn’t something that I can control. I couldn’t controlled my metabolism, but I still got really upset because I had friends who hated their body and thought they were ugly because they were fat and I watched them starve themselves which completely broke my heart. It wasn’t until when I went out with one of my best friends when she’d talk about how much she loved eating and we ate a lot because we loved it, not because we wanted to gain weight. Then lockdown came around and I ate whatever wanted without a care. I finally gained weight and I thought I would be happy, but I wasn’t. I wasn’t happy now that I’m not that skinny. My stomach wasn’t flat anymore, I looked bloated most of the time and there’s a little bump. Now I check it every night and it’s gotten bigger lately. I don’t enjoy working out, because I’m always really tired, especially from school. I get sad every time I look at that bump of fat on my tummy every night, and I just want it gone. I guess, I haven’t really gotten over this problem, but I have learnt to accept it and life is too short to worry about these trivial things. I’ve embraced my skinniness and even though I’m not satisfied with my stomach (I do with the fat grew on my arms and legs because they’re skinny as hell) it’s a part of me and I have to embrace that too.

So…. Here are some tips:

  1. Don’t compare yourself to others, you’re perfect the way you are and no one can say otherwise.
  2. Drink water!! it solves all your problems, skin problems, eating problems. If you don’t want to eat as much, drink a lot of water before, then your stomach will think it’s full and then you won’t have to eat as much. But don’t use this too often because it could lead to eating disorders!! So be warned!!
  3. Change your mindset, change how you think of yourself
  4. Limit social media, it can be very toxic to people who doesn’t have a strong mindset or thick skin
  5. WHO CARES WHAT ANYONE THINKS!!! YOU DO YOU!!

I hope this post has helped you or someone you know

I do talk about a lot of sensitive topics in my glow-up diaries, but these issues has made me a better person and the person I want to be.

If you have any questions or you need support, comment or dm us on instagram or email us!!

Good Luck

Lot’s of Love

-Vivian

2 thoughts on “Viv’s Glow up Diaries #2

  1. I was skinny whole my childhood years, have experienced that wind will blow me away, people calling me a skeleton, doing that wrist thing, ask me to eat!!!! Always have a comment ready for me…thinking it was fun…
    For the past 2 years due to excessive stress, depression, and a stagnant lifestyle, I gained a LOT of weight suddenly,
    As I used to be super skinny, gaining weight was looking very much more!!!! People started commenting again “what happened to you ”
    “What did you do to yourself”, everywhere I go, people who know me open their surprised mouths and start advising me to ” eat less” but my diet was still the same!!!
    This is when it hits me, they comment when I was skinny, they comment when I have gained some fat…
    The moral of the story- they will always say something, just ignore them ❤❤❤

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    1. I agree!! Thank you for sharing❤️ it must’ve been very hard. Dont let anyone tell you what you should do to your body. It’s yours and you need to own it!! You are perfect and beautiful the way you are. And I am so proud of you❤️❤️

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